Morning sun casts chiaroscuro across the backyard patio. And the palm fronds there are gently illuminated, a look that cannot last. There is little sound, as if the morning were holding its breath. Then one bird sings a line of pretty chirps. A drier throat answers.

I suppose every morning holds promise like this – perhaps time to read – before the day moves into the usual commute, the hours of work. Elsewhere, people from the Middle East continue to pour into Germany. Other news from that same country just in: “Despite a sluggish global economy and political turmoil, official attendance for the 2015 Frankfurt Book Fair rose modestly over 2014.” That’s a good sign, one suggesting people still cherish books, though the students in my school seem to prefer their mobile devices. Those sitting in the student center with an ever-present phone or computer on hand could be reading entire books through one app or another, but I suspect they are not.

When I was a younger librarian, working for the Seattle Public Library, I enjoyed putting up the wonderful READ posters produced by the American Library Association. Each one showcased an impressive portrait of one celebrity or another: Oprah, Bette Midler, Paul Newman, Mikhail Baryshnikov, Miss Piggy, Steve Martin, Maya Angelou, David Bowie, and others. It appears these posters are still being created, but I haven’t seen one in years. I no longer work in a public library, though I suspect there’s more to it than that. Reading entire books just isn’t cool anymore.

I remember parents bringing their children to the library to check out impressive stacks of kids’ books. I’m assuming some families still do this. I remember enthusiastic children asking where they could find another book like A Wrinkle in Time by Madeleine L’Engle or The Watsons Go to Birmingham – 1963 by Christopher Paul Curtis. More recently, I have chatted with at least one high school English teacher willing to admit she has had students in her class who have never finished a book.

These days, I help community college students find the books they need to complete their assignments. They only seem to ask for them if their instructor has specified a book is necessary for full credit. As they stand before the reference desk, they often indicate they are in a hurry. Many assume I can produce exactly the book they need. It is the rare student who applies the critical thinking skills necessary to select their own sources for the paper they are about to write. And I don’t generally notice eager readers browsing the stacks to satisfy their own curiosity. I have wondered, on more than one occasion, how many of them actually read – with comprehension – one entire book during a given semester.

I was expected to read a hefty pile of books each quarter (in high school and in college). I used take exams I would have failed if I had not, indeed, read these books. Sure there were CliffNotes. But my professors were no dummies. They often promised tests – requiring Blue Book essays – that could not have been passed with the help of summaries. Today these exams would almost be viewed as cruel and unusual.

You might sneer and remind me that I am working in a community college. But I have honestly wondered what I would observe if I worked in a university library. Would I find enthusiastic readers browsing the New Books shelves as my generation once did? Would I talk to students hot on the trail of the latest important work about a particular subject? I suspect modern university students expect to find what they need online—the latest everything. Indeed, it seems like younger generations have decided they don’t need to learn how to analyze – stay with, focus on – lengthier tomes. Instead, they cast their nets across the waves of cyberspace and calmly decide the information they retrieve will suffice.

Speaking of my generation—I fall at the tail end of the Boomers—we still talk books. We run book groups, participate in Goodreads, and share our favorites during meaningful talks. While Boomers still hold some sway over some things, I’ve been informed we are out. Maybe that’s how it should be. As a parting shot, however, I challenge today’s librarians, reading teachers, and English instructors to come up with a new READ campaign, one that encourages lengthy (hours of reading) in-depth analysis – downright meditation – on the world’s great books. Sure, today’s young brains are being trained to use technology, and they often demonstrate breathtaking sparks of intelligence as they display what they can do. Imagine the promise of mental ability intentionally geared to move the mouse with ease AND read deeply.


I try to submit a few poems each weekend. Most are simultaneous submissions. To keep this process organized—the submissions, the rejections, the occasional acceptance—I’ve come to rely on Duotrope. “Duotrope is a subscription-based service for writers that offers an extensive, searchable database of current fiction, poetry, and non-fiction markets, a calendar of upcoming deadlines, submissions trackers, and useful statistics…”

In particular, I’ve found it easy to keep meticulous records by using their submission tracker. It is my belief that the efficiency of this system has improved my acceptance rate dramatically. Over time, I’ve developed a list of favorite journals. All I have to do is click on a journal title within Duotrope to see if it is currently open for submissions. I can also retrieve a list of poems I’ve already submitted to that journal, along with a status note for each piece. Alternatively, I can click on one of my poems and pull up the list of journals it has visited.

Last Sunday I was lounging in Starbucks, looking over my submissions to Colorado Review. I noticed I’d accidentally sent them two different drafts of the same poem—both of which were rejected. One, entitled “Blackout,” describes an event that occurred on September 8, 2011. Since dubbed the 2011 Southwest Blackout, it left nearly 6 million people in Southern California, Arizona, and Baja without power. I never placed “Blackout,” but I later drafted a second poem that ultimately became a mash-up, one that included this poem as well as another I never published, “Trona Pinnacles.” I named the new poem, “Scene Change,” and eventually found a home for it, Catamaran Literary Reader.

I continued sitting there, sipping my coffee and idly reflecting on the path “Scene Change” had taken, when the power went out. It’s funny how you don’t notice how loud Starbucks actually is until there is no music, no air conditioning, no beeping, no humming of any sort whatsoever. For a moment the establishment was almost completely still. Then the nattering began. “Does anyone know how long the power will be out?” It was unseasonably hot that day, and customers were quick to speculate: Too many people running their air conditioners!

Of course the Wi-Fi was also out. I wondered if Verizon had been hit, too, because I could not bring up a thing on my phone. From where I was sitting, there was no way of telling just how bad this blackout was.

My drive home from work during the 2011 power outage proved to be a bit wild. Not one traffic light was on—a veritable roadway free for all was in play, though “parking lots” were quickly developing along major freeways. I breathed a sigh of relief when I made it home.

These memories continued to surface as I tried to decide if I should get out of my chair and rush ahead of all the people who weren’t remembering the Great Blackout of 2011. But I had a ticket to “A Walk in the Woods.” I wasn’t ready to surrender it just yet.

Maybe the power will come right back on.

It didn’t. Starbucks lost no time closing up shop. I rushed over to the theater, thinking perhaps it had escaped the darkness, only to hear the same old line from an exiting theatergoer, “The power is out!”

By then, I’d lost my edge. Though my next move was to rush to my car, I ended up staring into the rearview mirror for at least 15 minutes, waiting for a safe moment to back out of my parking space as the entire lot slowly filed out.

Finally, I made my way into the funnel. Once I was released from the parking lot, I managed to drive through the power outage within a matter of blocks. The operating traffic lights in unafflicted areas immediately brought back a sense of order. And my next stop – the supermarket – was blissfully cool. I later learned this particular power outage could hardly be called the Great Blackout of 2015, though 115,000 people did go without electricity for a spell. I’ll never forget, though, the flickering candles people were forced to use back in 2011. I’ll never forget the strange sense of happiness in my neighborhood—how eerie it was, how dark and celebratory.

What’s in a Milk Bottle

I still remember the time when someone delivered Crystal Milk to our front door. When I was very young, the milk came in clear glass bottles—two different styles. One bottle was designed with an extra fat neck looking like a smaller vessel resting upon the larger bottle. This is the place where the cream settled. The other style was more typical, as the milk it contained was homogenized, and no doubt pasteurized. At some point, I must have expressed an interest in the cream contained in the fat-necked bottles, because my father proceeded to explain what homogenized and pasteurized meant. For some reason I still remember this moment.

Later, Crystal Milk arrived in the sort of cartons we use today. The milkman (apparently, there were no milk-women) would leave these cartons right by the front door—and occasionally a dog plundered them, leaving spilt milk to sour in the hot Sacramento Valley air.

I was most drawn to bottles with the non-homogenized milk (the ones with orange lettering), because they needed to be shaken before they were poured. I found them weird  and more cheerful than the garden-variety bottles (the ones with red lettering). A later model of me would have called them quirky.

When Crystal switched to cartons of homogenized/pasteurized milk, the need to shake the containers became a distant memory, one that was not brought back into focus until I was teenager living on an Oregon farm.

During that time we purchased milk directly from the dairy down the road. Though the milk was bottled in the same gallon-size plastic containers you could find in the grocery store, it was sold raw (not pasteurized or homogenized). That meant the cream floated above the milk, and the entire concoction needed to be shaken before it was consumed. This milk was delicious. It was easy to cheat, to pour more cream than was allotted for an eight ounce glass of milk—for a truly rich drink.

Today, the Food and Drug Administration warns against the dangers of raw milk: “Raw, unpasteurized milk can carry dangerous bacteria such as Salmonella, E. coli, and Listeria, which are responsible for causing numerous foodborne illnesses.” I must say, I did love raw milk back in the day, but I’ve become wary of E. coli. And anyway, I haven’t had a glass of raw milk in years.

Every so often, though, I think of those fat-necked bottles that captured my attention before I set foot in kindergarten. I’m happy to remember them—my personal album of childhood recollections now contains more holes than images. Even so, it remains a slideshow of quirky things: bamboo in the backyard, old Chevrolet pick-up my father could repair himself, tiny plastic telephone on a keychain (in pastel pink or blue), levee, railroad spike, persimmon, toad, green tomato worm, hose fight, wooden railroad trestle that once propped up a logging line running to Butte Falls, Shetland pony, sewing machine, Butte Creek Mill, pear orchard, Oregon Shakespeare Festival Tart Girl (apparently there were no Tart Boys).

Yes, there are many details I wouldn’t mind having back, such as what the meat market looked like or the first car I ever knew—yet the quirky ones still shimmer. I could probably continue to meditate upon my favorite milk bottle (Google Images has proven I’ve remembered it accurately) and conjure algae-covered strands of thoughts and feelings demanding to be pulled to the surface and subsequently inspected until there is enough material to shape it into something that transcends the personal and becomes art. For a single image plucked from one’s youth has the potential of stirring an entire story—real or imagined—crisply present.

“The Dangers of Raw Milk: Unpasteurized Milk Can Pose a Serious Health Risk” Protecting and Promoting Your Health. U. S. Food and Drug Administration, 7 May 2015. Web. 24 Aug. 2015.

The Feat of Protecting One’s Feet

My feet after 48 miles of hiking along the John Muir Trail

My feet after 48 miles of hiking along the John Muir Trail

The above picture displays the state of my feet one day after 48 miles of backpacking, mainly along the John Muir Trail. The blood blisters beneath my toenails are old wounds, the result of a Memorial Day weekend “shakedown” backpacking trip on Mount San Jacinto (see Shaking Down the Trail). Had I not chewed up my feet during that hike, I probably would have come out of this one with clean toes.

I was lucky. The shakedown trip is meant to help backpackers assess difficulties that might emerge during longer treks. On the last day of that Mount San Jacinto adventure, my new boots tripped me up when I attempted to head down the trail with a full backpack on (they’d been fine on a long downhill stretch sans backpack). My toes became so badly bruised I could barely walk. I actually had to remove my boots, tape 5 toes, and walk out in softer shoes. It still hurt like hell. Even more disturbing, I had less than 6 weeks to correct the problem.

I couldn’t attempt to try a new pair for 2 weeks, as it took that long for my toes to heal. I decided the best thing to do would be to look for boots in the same make and model that had worked for me in Yosemite back in 2010, when I hiked the High Sierra Camp Loop, staying in their renowned canvas tents along the way. I was happy to discover REI still sold them (and I was very happy with their generous exchange policy).

Even so, I was nervous I was going to bomb out on a trip I’d been preparing for since late January (see Bringing Down the Weight). I was also concerned about my cranky back. I found myself sharing these fears with my rolfer—as he was working over this said back. He suggested I hike Cowles Mountain twice a week with a full pack on in an attempt to prepare. He thought this would give my body a chance to adapt before I got started.

At 1594 feet, Cowles Mountain is the highest point in San Diego. The hike to the top and back runs roughly 4.2 miles. I hit this Cowles trailhead fully equipped with backpack and brand new boots exactly 3 weeks after I experienced the seriously bruised toes. It wasn’t a breeze, but I could complete the hike with no new injuries to my feet. I began to relax as I continued with these training hikes, along with some workouts in the gym. Then I was sidelined once again by a calf muscle that seized up as I was running on a treadmill, leaving me hobbling. This occurred exactly 2 weeks before my backpacking group was scheduled to arrive at our trailhead, Glacier Point.

My calf was not better the next day. I ended up abandoning the rest of my workouts, and guiltily spent a lot of extra time in the bathtub. Not cool during a period of level 2 drought restrictions. I also hauled out my yoga mat and started getting more serious about my stretching.

The following week I was scheduled to take a poetry workshop at the Tassajara Zen Mountain Center. Tassajara offers natural hot springs in Japanese style baths. I was hoping to get a lot of soaking time in. But at this point, I was becoming anxious about my declining fitness level. And as I left for the workshop on the 4th of July, my calf was still complaining.

The baths at Tassajara ultimately brought relief to the calf in question. Though I didn’t have my backpack with me, I decided to hike around the Tassajara grounds every day, in an attempt to stay in shape. Upon return, I completed one last training hike in the Laguna Mountains, walking some 10 miles. Glacier Point (day 1) was 5 days away.

I can’t believe my feet are fine. I did not get one blister or bruise during the entire week in Yosemite. This is not to say I didn’t experience any problems. On day 2, we ended up camping in a burn area, one that was still sooty.


On day 3, it rained at the Sunrise High Sierra Camp, where we set up our tents in the backpacker’s campground. A blessing: a few of us were able to talk the cook in the slightly more posh canvas tent camp into selling us leftover turkey dinners. To die for! On day 4, it began to rain once more.


I also sliced one finger as I was attempting to open my resupply box with a Multitool. On day 5, I began the ascent to Donohue Pass in a full out thunderstorm. The last mile leading to first bridge (the first place backpackers are allowed to camp after leaving Tuolumne Meadows) is very steep, and hikers face many granite stairs. As I climbed listening to the thunder and feeling the rain, I felt like I was hanging by a thread outside a castle wall in a veritable tempest. Thrilling! Of course, our group arrived at first bridge (9600 feet) to face damp ground and rain that was not dispersing. After we set up our tents, we hunkered down in our sleeping bags. It poured for hours.


The next morning (day 6), I took stock of my situation. My original plan was to leave the group (I needed to keep my trek beneath 10,000 feet, because I’ve experienced scary altitude sickness when I’ve attempted to go higher) and head back down Lyell Canyon until I reached the Evelyn Lake Junction. From there, I was going to spend one last night by the lake, before taking the Rafferty Creek Trail to Tuolumne Meadows where my car was parked. While I’d managed to stay dry throughout the storms we experienced, I decided another night – alone this time – in more rain at an elevation of 10,334 would not be a good idea.

Instead, I shortened my trip by one night and hiked some 10 miles back down the John Muir Trail to Tuolumne Meadows. Needless to say, it rained and hailed most of the way. As I walked, I truly felt for my fellow hikers, who were in process making their way over Donohue Pass at 11,056 feet. They did arrive safely in Red’s Meadow on day 8.

I will refrain from going on an on, thereby skipping most of the good stuff. Here’s a hint though: I’ve already begun cleaning up my gear for the next trip. I’ve been invited to backpack in the Grand Canyon, and I am also eyeing the Ansel Adams Wilderness Area.

A few pictures…


Panorama Trail

Panorama Trail

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Rain in Lyell Canyon

Rain in Lyell Canyon


Watering Schedule

I don’t do much with my lawn on the Oregon Coast. I don’t take steps that would result in fine grass, perfectly manicured and green. My lawn is a patch of coarse weeds kept in check by a mower. Every so often, the moles visit, and it appears to be fighting a bad case of acne. And yet… I recently looked out my window, only to stare at this lawn, which was a gorgeous shade of green. It had just been mowed and wasn’t looking too bad. That’s when a funny thought occurred to me. I never water it. Ever. It was the first time I’d had such a thought.

For the record, I moved to Oregon in 1976—after my parents divorced—and ended up staying twelve years, before heading to Seattle to attend graduate school. Some years later, I moved back part-time. This particular lawn has been my responsibility for nearly 17 years.

I was actually driving to Oregon when a phone message from the Padre Dam Municipal Water District in East San Diego County blasted through a cord attached to my iPhone, into my car speakers, ultimately interrupting my playlist. It detailed the new mandatory watering schedule due to drought level 2 water use restrictions. Even number addresses will water on Wednesdays and Saturdays, odd numbers on Thursdays and Sundays. The next ultimatum: water no more than 10 minutes per watering station per watering day (in the city of San Diego people are restricted to 5 minutes per watering station per watering day).

A few years back, I took steps to minimize my watering by putting in a xeriscape garden. I found a landscape designer who helped me choose plants like rosemary, lavender, Mexican sage, butterfly bush, and daylilies to create gardens in my two yards. They remain works in progress. I don’t always get around to pruning and weeding right away. Skunks, raccoons, and gophers are prone to barreling into beds in search of goodies. Still, I’ve become attached to my plants and their regular blooms. I dream about how these gardens will look once they are truly manicured (which, of course, has to be an ongoing process).

In any event, when the message ended, and music resumed playing, I found myself thinking about how this new watering schedule would curtail the old one considerably. I’d set my timer based on the recommendations of my landscaper. I’d even brought the time down when a sprinkler repairman suggested I was overwatering in places. Now I wondered how many plants would survive this latest reduction. I wondered if I’d made a huge mistake in putting the garden in; though my intention had been to avoid a lawn—all the time and water it would have taken to keep it looking good.

I couldn’t do much about the new edict until I returned, so I tried not to think about any of these points as I meditated on green everything, everywhere in Oregon. I now see this was a passive aggressive form of mourning.

I still don’t know how many plants I will lose this summer. Yet I have reached some sense of acceptance. Dying plants can be replaced by varieties requiring less water. I have also begun to use a bucket to catch my shower water as I’m waiting for it to warm up—a suggestion that has been broadcasted loudly in San Diego County of late. I find this morning ritual rather sweet. After I shower and dress, I take the bucket outside to search for the thirstiest looking green things. I am hoping to hold on to my favorites.

Shaking Down the Trail

Granite Gully campsite rests 9800 feet above—and theoretically two hours away from—the beaches of Southern California. While this space has been labeled by modern humans as part of the Little Round Valley Campground – existing in the larger Mount San Jacinto State Park – it is a realm that has seen little change, even as it has towered before the birth of Los Angeles and the millions of people who have settled there. No doubt it will placidly exist in the face of the millions yet to come. Snow falls and melts. The cones of hefty lodgepole pines blanket the ground in places. Granite slabs and boulders abound.


There is no road for motoring to the campground, though you can take the Palm Springs Aerial Tramway to a station at 8516 feet and then hike 6.5 miles from there. Little Round Valley has been set up for backpackers. My friend, Jodi Reed, and I thought it would be a great place to head during our shakedown backpack trip in preparation for a longer one on the John Muir Trail. Jodi has assembled some ten or so people for this JMT trek. At least six plan to attempt the entire trail, while others expect to hike shorter legs.

I’m in the less ambitious group. The length of the John Muir Trail actually went on my bucket list after I backpacked a stretch of it at the age of 11. Yet I have – most sadly – been forced to face my personal elevation limitations. On more than one occasion, I’ve experienced scary and debilitating attitude sickness above 10,000 feet—I’ve chosen to live life below that line. So I’ve selected a route I can do with the group, before doubling back to Tuolumne Meadows. With that decision in place, I embarked on this two-night trip to discover any other limitations I might encounter—and to test my gear.

My second fear – setting altitude sickness aside – centered on how I would do in a newer pair of boots. They had served me pretty well on a few long day hikes; yet I had not tested them on trails with significant elevation gain, nor had I hiked in them wearing a backpack. I was less worried about my pack weight, as I’d recently purchased lighter gear. That said, pack weight can certainly “go up” with the level of rigor. I was also somewhat worried about using my new gear successfully, particularly the SteriPEN. I’d never attempted to purify water before. One last point: Jodi and I were both concerned about the weather forecast. While it looked like we’d avoid precipitation, the nighttime lows were expected to hover around 32 degrees.

We got a late start on our first day, not reaching the Deer Springs trailhead – near Idyllwild – until 4:30 pm. Our first night was slated for Strawberry Junction Campground, some 4.3 miles away (elevation 8040). I’d hiked this stretch of the trail before (sans backpack), so I didn’t bother to ponder the 2420 elevation gain ahead of time. That knowledge might have knocked me off my block before I assembled my gear.

The hike proved to be eerie, as the mountain was enshrouded in low clouds. We passed blooming Manzanita, Indian paintbrush, and lupine. I’d packed wanting to simulate the heaviest weight I might carry on the John Muir Trail, so I threw in my bear canister (bears are not a threat in this park) and started with a full gallon of water. The backpack was manageable, though it became tougher to deal with as we closed in on Strawberry Junction, which did not have an easily accessible water source. I was happy to have the gallon. We even ended up sharing water with two nearby campers.

As we scurried to set up camp, the sunlight was diminishing fast. Jodi and I headed to our tents as soon as we finished eating our respective freeze-dried meals, which we were testing for the JMT trip (I’ll keep Mountain House lasagna on my packing list). I lay in my sleeping bag (rated 30 degrees and up) dressed in fleece leggings, a wool long underwear top, and socks. It wasn’t long before I knew I would not sleep unless I added more layers. I ended up donning three pairs of socks, my hiking pants over my leggings, two long underwear tops, a hoodie, and a down jacket (with a hood). This finally did the trick. I slept well enough to face day two.

Over breakfast, we talked each other out of bailing. Then we broke camp, and began the 3.8 mile hike to Little Round Valley. The weather was ideal for our pursuit. I felt cheerful—we had a lot more time to reach the next destination, though the trek was only slightly less challenging than day one. During the last hour, we stopped at a rushing stream, and I finally got to try out my SteriPEN, which uses UV light to purify water. I’m glad Jodi was there. I couldn’t completely remember how to use it, and I was in no mood to rifle through my pack for the instructions. Needless to say, this handy tool has become my preferred water purification method for the JMT trip.


The rest of the day was relaxing, once we organized everything. For the record, neither of us felt inspired to climb another thousand feet to reach the summit. We rested and then tested out more backpacking grub. Jodi contributed a delicious cheesecake sold by Packit Gourmet. High marks, there. We retired to our tents before the sun went down. We knew how to bundle up this time.

I’d like to say, “All’s well that ends well.” I’d like to report on how the hike out was a breeze. Yet my biggest problem surfaced on the way down. It wasn’t the double distance that bothered me—8 miles. I felt relatively hardy as we began our descent (and very glad the altitude had not done me in). It wasn’t the pack weight, either. It was the boots. They’d felt good on day one, pretty good on day two, and excruciating on day three. The downhill slope and my pack contributed to unwanted friction on the tops of my toes. I was forced to remove my boots, tape five toes individually, and put on my camp shoes, which are a bit like slippers (though the soles aren’t bad). I’d actually bought them with the idea I could hike in them in a pinch.

My taping job and the new shoes did ease the pain, but not completely. I began steeling myself for the remaining 4+ miles. I was pretty sure I could make it, but I figured we were facing a long afternoon.

Then Jodi – who was supposed to be waiting at the next water source – returned to inform me we had taken a wrong turn. I was about to ask how many more miles when she went on to say we could continue down this trail – the Marion Mountain Trail – for another 30 or 40 minutes and we would reach a parking lot where a lovely young couple was waiting to drive us to our car. For me, this was a moment of pure delight.

To make a long story short, Jodi and I and the lovely young couple shoved our four backpacks, along with our bodies, into a ride only Batman could love. It was a squeeze, but we made it back to the car in time for a nice lunch in Idyllwild.

Final analysis: I figure if I can work out my footwear in time for the JMT trip, I’m good to go.